This is not a novel, which is the author's real experiences. All those who read this story, hope this is not true. But, it does real happened. Tibet, the beautiful and mysterious place, what is the call of the countless men, women Hunqianmengying somewhere? What is the make of this woman called Mocha from bitterly painful? Mocha walk along Tibet's footsteps, we have seen in Tibet to see the Potala Palace, saw the vulture to see the mysterious fate of impermanence smile ......

I remember that day Chuxiang Shi

In Tibet, Lhasa, and that study, called the eight gallery hotel to see them, that's two boys, being a piece of paper has been written posted on the bulletin board: 2 GG 1 MM, routes: Lhasa - Shigatse -- That wood wrong - Nagqu. MM is a sign with the tour, such as the right route, please phone.

"You are going wrong, and Nagqu that wood?" I stopped that was preparing to leave for wearing a blue shirt, tall boy.

"Yes, you are interested in?" He turns to look at me dumbfounded a moment, then smiled  very friendly eyes flashed a glimmer of light.

"Two GG is yours, as well as an MM do?" I am a person came from Yunnan Province and then to Tibet, along the way with many different people rented cars, I know very well get along with peers who is happy, it will directly affect the road feelings.

"That MM is the driver and introduced to us, heard that it is located in the Tibet Daily journalists working."

"My name is Mocha, from Shenzhen, you two come from?" I'm doing a simple self-introduction, thought to myself he wanted to do with them.

Via chat only know that he called the skirmish, Guiyang, now Shanghai's development, engaged in IT industry, like photography, he would Tibet collecting folk songs a month, returned to Shanghai and before making an on the Tibetan style website.

A boy dressed in camouflage clothing called Hai-Tao, Peking Man, is a student studying in Australia to Tibet, the dream of his for many years, this summer just dreams.

I have urged both of them who was finally made up his mind, with their peers, starting two days later.

You are a very special woman, I love you.

Skirmishing proposed that we should buy some food and drinking water in preparation for the journey, so four people into the supermarket side of the road began a frenzied large purchasers. Skirmishing moved a box of water, Haitao selected a few samples dry food, Chinese Commercial News reporters Xiao Oumai and Liao Yiping sauce, except I bought a big pile of candy bags.

"You're so fond of sugar?" Skirmishing looked at me and spit in his tongue.

Jeep went on the road. When I was a baggage car, he was a skirmish superimpose I brought candy from Shanghai, his face thrown up a rare hint of male shyness, like the high school to the same table with me had a tender love letters Cyprus. I almost laughed out of the boy really cute, childish full.

Skirmishing is very knowledgeable on the Tibet and the Panchen Lama's own views on some inter-religious theory, the former palace from the Panchen Lama came out I had been his insights of Tibetan culture fell under the spell: "Imagine that you have so much study of religion." I eat candy while out of your pocket while sincerely say that.

Heard me praise him, and skirmishing suddenly did not speak, and silently looked at me candy, for a long time said: "You know, when I first saw you on a kind of déjà vu, you are my love the type of girl, I wonder if one day be able to bring you back to Guiyang Guiyang snacks to eat and that we be nice. "

"Yes, I know that there Guiyang Qianxi? That place seems very poor, many children have no money to go to school, I also had to fund a school for children called Jane, this year has been a fifth grade."

"Do you support it? School children?"

"Yes ah, western Guizhou Province, Guiyang How far away from you?" I asked skirmishing.

Skirmish did not answer me, but stood there and looked solemnly at me, with emotion, said: "wow! I began to love you."

Sentence seems a little joke I laughed Zhibuqiyao years, pointing to skirmish, said: "I did not see it, you kinda humorous."

Skirmish appears to be a sudden move confused me a little bit helpless, a flash of Yizheng, and then with me burst out laughing.

We are back in time to join the place, the driver suggested that we have to buy some live fish in the evening in an outdoor picnic.

Small gull and skirmishing decided to buy live fish, before he came skirmishing secretly ask what I like to drink beverages, I thought for a moment to tell him "Orange more."

10 A few minutes later, a small gull back, not try not seen skirmishing.

"There is also a do?" I asked a small gull.

"He's ah, do not run more than a dozen shops to buy Orange among many, but also went looking for it, people ah, some people care about and do not care how that is not the same."

Gull Hualiyouhua will be a small pile of food on the car, but I heart protruding waves, the sunshine boys Let me peace of mind for a long time since they re-ripples. Once thought Xinruzhishui, seen through the earth Qingqingwowo, love love love and for whom no longer be moved to had no idea that this seemingly childish some of the boys once again touched the bottom of my heart that the soft touch of nerves. Although not tell What kind of feeling, but a man for you even just a little unconscious expectations do everything, this starting point, is enough to melt the heart of any rock-solid, after all, I am not a heart of stone .

Since that time I came to understand, that they are not afraid of his fear of death but the separation.

Lake in the sheep, we are far from the Tibetan area, to a remote lakeside bar tent.

At night, I was awakened by a pack of wolves whistle, almost lost in the eyes and skirmishing must have heard this sound for a long time, see I woke up, he took my hand and whispered: Do not say anything, out there Wolf.

I was scared, and hold your breath to hear Wai in a tent outside a few wolves, breathing nearby, clearly visible under the moonlight shadow of the wolf. Haitao still asleep from time to time issued by Han Sheng, triggering a tent outside the wolf also smell of human breath, a wolf can not help but finally launched a frenzied attack on the tent, 50 cm, the Elang paw lifting from time to time some soil at the exit of the tent flap.

"Wake Up Haitao and small gulls bar," I fear to the extreme.

I stretched my hand In the past, pat Haitao and small gulls, they quickly woke up.

"Do not say anything, outside the wolf." My face so that they also felt at this time a serious situation.

In this way the stalemate, drooping wolf Wai in a tent outside, along the constant sniffing around the tent.

"Retractable feet to", skirmishing attached to my ear whispered, so I will shrink up and hidden in the foot by yard. Sure enough, Wai several wolves in the tent outside the mouth of title from the sudden cries of the biting edges of tents up.

A motionless, time went by in the past, we began to regret it, I really should not be in such remote areas, bar tents, in case the outside in. We are not even a wolf attacks on people who can not find help.

Tiankuai Liang, when suddenly the wolf outside the tent to give up our search to the distance running away, listening to sounds, like an animal in the catch-up by another.

"Is the possession of consumption." Skirmishing guess the Ba Jiufen.

"Tibetan consumption is a shepherd and yak hybrid, a possession of consumption arrived three wolf, it is more cruel than the wolf." Skirmishing whispered.

"That's how to do?" Never have so miss those Tibetans, I even began to get up early grazing fantasy there will be 12 tents to see if we lifted the Tibetans.

Fear quickly disappeared, possession of consumption of the lake to catch up with the Elang run and did not pay attention to our tent. Morning 7:00, skirmishing put on clothes Shuliaokouqi said to us: know what? Just as long as there is a wolf burst into the scene, we would be finished.

Dawn, we went to Tibetan area asked if they know something last night, Wolf, many Tibetans say that we live in a place so far away, of course dangerous.

When we have reached a three-day trip, we rented a car finally started complaining about how bad off-road vehicles, shut down for maintenance from time to time along the way, greatly reducing the journey of our spirits.

Che Xingzhi Nagqu areas, the jeep again in a bridge, where a halt. The weather was fine late, we thought that car broke down again, and looked out of a fleet drivers after they turn around and shouted to us: There are dangerous, fast Bump! !

I was scared the driver in a trembling voice, and looked out the window and saw a jeep into the left rear of the bridge, the cracks in crumbling, as long as the body has been shaking and then it will fall into more than 100 meters deep under the bridge. Bridge is filled with rocks, the situation is very urgent, if the car fell to the then lead to disastrous consequences.

Xiao-ou, and Haitao has been careful to open the door down, and when the body began to shake, I hesitated a moment on the skirmish, said: "You go first, my last." I do not know why he knows has a life-threatening, I still willing to survivors an opportunity reserved for him.

Skirmish did not move, a little bit of the location of the middle Tan Dao car: "Do not dawdle, you brisk walking." He anxiously shouted to me, turned out he was using the body weight to maintain vehicle balance.

We all jumped out of the car, we started at the roadside anxious wait, hope to have a passing vehicle can extricate us from the crisis, cold night, in order to reduce body weight, to prevent the body drop, skirmishing, and Haitao again ran to the vehicle solution luggage. I went to the car, I hope you can catch them to unload the thing, skirmishing, and Hai-Tao Du Let me not to the past, the car at a very dangerous, they could fall at any time to go.

I looked at them standing on the roof, the heart that jumped to their throats, prayer, praying, do not what happened. When the skirmish off to walk safely and to a coat draped over my body, the tears, not stop streaming down. Since then I came to understand, that they are not afraid of his fear of death but the separation.

October 22, 2003, has finally come Nagqu, tea Qu Township, to say the village.

Car started, and I sat in car after skirmishing with excitement out his camera to shoot photos to find out just what Zhang contrast is good, what Zhang bad. Yuehua Jian car is stopped, the driver said angrily bad luck, car side at this time, running out of oil.

Hai-Tao and the driver went off the back of a van stopped by oil, Xiao-ou have to go off to breathe, and only me and skirmishing continues unabated mood to watch photos. Yuehua Jian, I look back to see the van before the driver was standing retro spoke with the owner of what. Car, suddenly began to slowly slip backwards, the more slippery the sooner, the more slippery the sooner, all my memories are freeze-frame in that blink of an eye.

October 26, and so I woke up, only the eyes can be the upper and lower body activities. Unable to speak, but crazy like Quche found a variety of electrodes and pipelines, and my father was petrified of my moves, and he ran to find a doctor, the doctor said that now do not speak, do not know my mandible There is not broken, due to the body quite a number of fractures and falls, if the clear awareness of a very long time, then easily give rise to an integrated post-fracture complications, may also be a vegetative state.

You are in heaven looking at me? Give me some support let me live.

November 8, 2003.

Mocha Hello:

See this letter, explain your situation has stabilized. You say skirmishing, you, I meet a margin, but unfortunately the development of unexpected things. I just want to say you are a very strong girl, is your own death with the will to overcome.

In addition, you have a lot of friends during hospitalization lent a helping hand, a small gull, the former peak, small wish, small Xu, Rong-feng, some of you may not be familiar with, as well as your friends in Shenzhen, Feng Wei teachers, snow Kang Nima had sent a blessing. Everyone you impressed by the will to overcome difficulties, I hope you recuperate in the process also continues to change their attitude and do not live up to all of your expectations.

There is also a CD-ROM is the skirmishing was filmed a few days. Unfortunately, he was light for Zanlia shot, and not have their own pictures inside.

Well, finally relax a bit and I wish you a speedy recovery. Is estimated that the time I have at home.

Haitao

When I saw this letter has been brought back to his family in Shenyang China Medical large, medical professor at several major injuries directed at me, developed through consultation operative time was November 11.

Her mother brought back from the brother's luggage found a notebook and have been throwing rotten letter also read the letter when the tears fall down, I was very sensitive to the text, although Haitao, in his letter did not mention a single word skirmish injuries, I am still in the two sentences from the letter to come to understand the heartache and helplessness Haitao.

Haitao Why would say that the development of unexpected things, why there is no disc inside pictures of skirmishing became sorry. Is it what's wrong skirmishing.

I lay on the bed, tears silently issued a message to Xiao-ou:

Xiao-ou, request you, please you must tell me where the skirmish, he was kind of how in the end.

Xiao-ou did not call back for a long time, I had to recurrence.

Xiao-ou, we are friends one game anyway you please tell me the truth please?

Ten minutes later a small gull finally call back: the

"Mocha, we are all adults, and some things that should have the courage to face it? We all believe that you are strong."

Looked at the ceiling, tears silently falling, I choked back, with the quilt cover the face, do not give their parents to see the eyes full of tears, but the more forcibly endure, the more unable to hold back a few minutes later I finally burst into tears up .

From small to large, I am a person who does not like tears. Lhasa was discharged from the accident to play, from Lhasa to Chengdu, from Chengdu, Shenyang, then along the way, was moved around on a stretcher, the body broken bones, wounds, pain, throes, biting pain, but also has never been called before your voice does not fall off a tear.

The pain is different from the body, that I can no longer bear the pain.

Midnight, I was also hiding in the house in tears. Open the phone, find skirmishing phone, playing the past, the phone is turned off, I started lying on the quilt to the skirmish-fat message:

You said, if I like the Shanghai Pudong went looking for you, if I like you come to the SAR, Shenzhen, come to me, but before I tell you like where you have gone to heaven, I can not find paradise road, so I can not wait until you are doomed.

The next day, I still give skirmish fat message:

I was very critically injured, the pain would wake up every night, you in heaven looking at me? Give me some support let me live.

Day:

I do not know where you are buried, Shanghai, or Guiyang, so I can stand up to see you when.

Day Four:

I was finally pushed the operating room, outside the operating room jammed with my relatives and family.

Nine and a half hours later, when I was again and launch it from the operating theater, a lot of my relatives went to the toilet in tears.

Surgery that night, doctors brought emergency anesthetic case, saying that if the middle of the night when the pain unbearable, click, can ease the pain, midnight, I woke up after the mother said: "Mother, do not that anesthetic box, I survive it to live. "

I really hope that we have never met before, so I can pray, he is healthy and happy.

Surgery two weeks later I was discharged, and people have a lot of silence.

Haitao called and asked me how well restored, I also asked about the situation after the accident that day, he finally told me that, when the car after falling more than 400 meters, is a small gull catch up with him and picked up my foot and sporadic soldiers, skirmishing broke several ribs, due to blood flow to the lungs in the evening when eight died. I was sent to him and the little gull Nagqu a small hospital, blood pressure, only three dozen small gull  I lost 400CC blood saved my life, but then I gradually the situation is bad, Haitao call a small Gull telephone, in a small gull and others to contact and help I was only transferred to the hospital in Lhasa.

"That skirmish ... ... Do you know where he was buried in it?" I purposely own tone just relax, do not give Haitao pressure.

"In Lhasa cremated, and ashes by his uncle back to Guiyang." Haitao told me that if we return to Chengdu from Lhasa when the uncles and the skirmish aboard the same flight.

"And so on, when I can stand up to see him go, Guiyang," I suddenly thought of the ashes of skirmishing is actually the same flight home, my heart pains up.

Skirmishing in Lhasa cremated that day, I was wandering the jaws of mouth, maybe God pity me, do not want me eyes open the face of this sudden separation, if the eyes to face his death, I think I will cry fainted .

7 days, from the acquaintance of a separation of only seven days time, we have experienced a parting of life and death, October 22, there is a skirmish one month birthday, and his life has been forever in the 26-year-old freeze-frame, and I life has also increased a lot of memories, thoughts and pain.

Two months, the skirmishing has laid to rest in heaven, if I can, I really hope that we have never met before, so I can pray, he is healthy and happy.