Drunk, drunk coffee, tea drunk Yan.
Drunken books, drunk picture, drunk music.
Drunk a small bridge, drunk Diaojiaolou, intoxicating love.
Drunken sun, drunk landscape, drunk Temptress Moon.
Most free, most passionate, the most fun!
Now, I am in a state of Xunxun Ran. I was so happy, restless, reckless, and also while they tune adjustment. Every step forward and I am very brisk walking, every step I are cautious way, - fear, afraid that they are not careful to fall into the water of this intoxicating Tuojiang gone. In fact, I have already fallen to go, my heart fell into the go. This water is attractive not because it's clear, but because it's green Meng Meng. It is with vitality, it is so greedy, put into the blue sky mapping, the mapping into the light, the small bridge into Ying, the Diaojiaolou into Ying, Ying-Jin you my clothes, mapping into more green.
The wind blow this water ripples, but also the mapping of those things that disperse into the water, blowing chaos, blowing. The shore as if to live is their body, their souls are living in the water of the Central.
In addition to Shen Cong-wen gave me the impression of broken pieces, the hands of a map, I do not have any deliberate preparation. With the result of ignorance and strong sense of renewal, I walked into Phoenix.
I was so eager to find, I do not busy looking for. I am careless, but I aspire to the impossible. I supposed I have a very good friend to live here, she told me all sorts of benefits here, she told me to come play. But I arrived, she was out because of the temporary emergency far from home. She gave me a simple exhortations, let me help her take care of the room, others noted the respect to listen to it, the freedom to organize.
I said Yes, I checked into her room - the room I stayed in this room indeed a friend like the same kind.
Because it is my friend's house, so it casually, but also very insecure. Moreover, there is so special, surrounded by walls and ceilings of wood wrapped in a simple layer of paint on the ground. Smallpox has a long section of the roof, appropriate benefits to penetration into the sun, the xing XU penetration into the moonlight night will come.
If I listened carefully, you can hear the sound of water. Just the acoustic subtle, but rather a dream.
2
Everything is good let me happy, but not particularly surprised. Because I am not using an ordinary travelers look at it, but had idle days with a small woman's attitude to experience it. Wonderful again I would not hurry to put it one to swallow, or carved into the heart force. I am touched to appreciate and put it to rest assured that carefully glide from their own side. I knew we would encounter again in one corner of it. Was really the case. Several times tripling of several three-fold, I found an extremely natural Shunian feeling.
Fell in love with a place can be a matter for a few minutes or it can be Rijiushengqing thing. Fell in love with a place, is the first fall in love with the excitement of it, and then taste it quiet; or is it the first fall in love with the silence, and then share the excitement of it?
I exclude nothing, nothing to meet, but Looking back on waterside own shadow, slowly, with the attitude of looking for it to find its own, looking at it, appreciate it.
Jing Jing the morning up unsteadily on a wooden bridge across the Tuo River, over the north gate, slowly walking along the streets of the antique, and then out of Fuchengmen to the ancient city near the vegetable market. To a place, it will teach you the food market, this is my weird habits. Because certainly you can see some of the most homely, fresh, fun, real things. So, when I come out empty-handed though, and my heart is full.
Attached in the streets of the old lady stopped twice by different and asked my hair Maibu Mai. I asked the price. They say 50, and the discussions gave a good look. Natural hair is not sold, but my mind was coming to the United States and diligently.
Back to the ancient city of ri Huang, look, look at the house, watch candy shop to see genuine silver shop, colored batik shops, and other arts and crafts shop. Thirsty to buy a green bean ice, while sucking side of the stroll. Hungry, sit down in a shop, to a bowl of Fried, while other side and boss chat, by the way told her to give a little more pepper, - she heard that I was in Chengdu who can laugh ho ho, Spicy rate of increase is extremely generous.
The afternoon sun baked the riverside. Wanton look at the light in the water swimming ass kids. Looked at the water, watching the carefree children, there will be some tipsy. This water with a nimbus, as if living inside a Lady in the Water.
Kafka's blankets out the roar I heard: "If there is no Lady in the Water, the sailors would be lonely."
I am also facing the river and the blankets out the roar: "Lady in the Water Yeah, Lady in the Water, singing bar!"
And then walked along the river, suddenly had inspiration, decided to go to the tomb of Shen Cong-wen. Did not use the maps, because the road has been a long time ago, I engraved on the heart. Sure enough, there is no mistake, I came to a smooth piece of colorful stone face, hair to stay for a while, a little bit worried. Oh, think of Shen Cong-wen, he's in the written word is often said that this kind of made him a little anxiety, for example: "I love this place, such characters. Their lives simple, so I will always be a little concerned."
When want to leave anyway, I will come back once, to send a bouquet of flowers to Mr. Shen Lao. Hypothesis can be seen Shenlao me, with a slight impression that I suppose next time I go to when he saw me become a color and the "Tracy" see through the dark by the sun, like the girls, but also, like biting her lip, crabby crabby looked at him, it will certainly surprise the bar.
This playfully thought, in that little worries are dissipated.
Go to Hongqiao bought a Shen's "Xiang-line" Record of my heart with joy graceful manner.
This one did not take the ride of a life, in my extremely enjoyed. May be squandered, but certainly not a waste.
The evening with a stack of postcards and Shen Congwen's book to "prime coffee", but are not used, because just hit a bunch of half-drunk strangers. We all like to play, and love of lively young man, so it is easy to catch the words, one of which is the owner of the Phoenix International Youth Hostel. I followed them Chijiu, slapstick one night.
3
The next day traveled to黄丝桥古城. The car will have local women followed me, this get rid of another to keep up with the other. Anyway, let me give them ten-dollar money, then they gave me a tour guide, and help our province to other tickets.
Today, I especially twisting, ignoring them, and resolutely refused to give money, but would rather not see where. I prefer to leave that sorry is not willing to be destroyed before the US's imagination away. Dao Shi bought at the door was somehow a little girl a slight comb horn handicrafts. I know that I do not need, do not know what will come in handy if.
Out of yellow silk bridge, planned to go to Allah to see go to the market. In the city gate is surrounded by a bunch of tricycle.
"Where?"
"Allah."
"To Allah two dollars."
"It's not a dollar?" I casually also a price, in fact, heart do not know.
"I'm really two dollars, we do not deceive you."
This one dollar of money in order to bargain with them with relish. Now think of it we are not for the money, but to Haizui fun bar.
Later, a tricycle Gustafsson of mouth, he is the Don. Others to follow loose mouth, and even said: Do not the money, and set you to that. I also chose to take Don's car. I am a little bit like Don favorite bar, because he, like most of Shen from the pen of a sailor under the: "big eyes, wide face, nose short, broad shoulders and hung two big hands the next." ( "A passionate sailor and a passionate woman ")
Don said something along the way, and gossip, by Allah, vehicle blocking a lot and I may be sending a Don said to the market. And then to the market, he asked again I would like to not have him take me. I say yes. He then pulled up by the roadside, with a casual look around me. Tang walking fast, xing XU in his view all these are extremely common, no special to watch the value of bar.
And I feel good, spirits were high. I was kind of an inexplicable excitement visiting the market's mood has gone up guy. Even if the side is such a small coherent strangers. I think a few years later I would be a great housewife it, Hehe.
Don took me turned into a quiet alley, the house is a very simple style typical of the Miao. Tang said that there used to be one and the yellow wire bridge from the ancient city Unfortunately, when the Cultural Revolution, was completely destroyed. He walked while some puzzle in the house with huge boulders that look at me, saying it was removed from the old city walls come. In addition to these, both he and I have no more topics.
Alley is not very long, and then bent around the two went to the Tanabe. Looking around us, a green, breeze ask face, you can hear the faint sound of water. Together we have made a will to stay. I really willing to so long a daze, doing a "Hear the Wind Sing", and poetic guy.
Don took me to a saliva the well and told me to drink. Then he felt a little dirty water, he drank two stammered, with me to leave. Finally, we continue to stroll back to market. In fact, Don should be the kind of guy who rarely visiting the bazaar, because he simply can not know the prices of all goods.
I bought some kiwi and pears, are rarely seen daily fresh and cheap: fifty cents a pound.
Was mixed among the local people look at them indignantly with oversized dice gamble. Don on one side and the principles of interpretation to me.
I would ask Don to eat, he firmly refused, saying that "hungry." I had one person to sit down and asked for a bowl of cold rice tofu, but also super-cheap: one yuan a bowl, I can not weight enough to eat. Here is the price of rice more than doubled in Phoenix cheaper!
I have to eat elsewhere to find a friend when the Tong to play, you count the time I eat almost back, and then took me to stroll around. During this period went to the cafe, put another addition on the QQ friends. I know Don's age, was shocked, but still there is no 20-year-old, speaking to a guy so innocent!
A very simple, very plain browsing, I see that those will not feel the slightest excitement made me tired.
Finally, I bought a pound of rice wine. Can not find a clean bottle, Don rush out to buy a bottle of mineral water, yet in vain drained the water inside the bottle to me. I want to give him water, money, and he is reluctant to be.
Don said, you are very good. People travel a lot to look down upon us. You do not, you have to talk to us.
I did not speak, my heart want to say is, in fact, until you really, really good.
I like the exchange of such a person. Maybe they are not knowledgeable, but they can in their lives within the scope of their little wisdom on its head. They are external, and knowledgeable people who harbor the simple goodwill, or even respect. Their principle is simple, you are good to them, they are very good for you. For the girls, they were not ignored, but there is a very natural sympathy and care.
Our so-called insight, experience such a life, but beyond the reach of. So I can not allow ourselves to have the slightest contempt for them.
4
Afternoon, a sleep wake up to the present day briefing at the hotel, listening to buzzing sound of the water to see Shen's book, and writing postcards. Before drank some coffee and rice wine. Tuojiang then went to the edge of a daze.
Phoenix, which is really a great place. It is with its gentle, its customs, its understanding, quietly near me, warm me, give me passion, give me inspiration, then I am drunk.
The weather is so good, good to idle for granted. I have a lot of time wallowing in a lot of them to start and its bets, the start and its ambiguous entanglement. My time was murdered, and I am happy to indulge themselves.
I do not think tomorrow, and not think about my future work. However, if the world would one likes to travel, there are dreams, and optimistic about the guy drowning, then this world is not much point in呀!
5
At night a person Tuojiang side, one called "waterwheel Corner" tea bar. In the fierce and intoxicating sound of the water to continue to write a postcard to a friend. Later, bar owners, a Phoenix locals come to chat with me. I said I fell in love here, and not want to go the.
The boss said, then you come to stay.
Then he said, you go back and carefully consider it, come and I am partner.
I said, considering there is no use ah. I do not have money.
Owner very seriously, said money does not matter, find a boyfriend, a local bar. I can help you.
I Yun Si!
After his talk to me working here, the possibility of his, he said I could come to him at work, 300 a month, room and board control.
I have a room to refused.
Out of an extremely stimulated by his personal sense of destiny, I know he will not deliberately trying to stay in Phoenix. But I am determined to put it into my lover, confidant and is a lifetime lover.
I was so fond of it. Love that can not hide his emotions before it. That there is a little bit of love and hatred can not be the slightest flaw allows it. Love can not control their emotions and want to say ill of, but an open mouth, but felt that the proliferation of soft hearts.
6
In Phoenix on the third day, the weather was hot, hot to breathe. But the sun and the sky is so charming, big blossoming white clouds in the blue blue sky movement. Too good to complain if people do not have the heart to say.
Today is the Lunar New Year 18, in the mountains there is a big set of River. Although yesterday to surpass set, but I am still not willing to not go. Squeezed into a local CMB, barely found a place to sit. Driver said: "immediately drove immediately to drive!" But he did this "immediately" is a matter of a few dozen minutes later, until the whole car into a canned food. Someone in the canned food, vegetables, and even a chicken. Although I was the only one from outside, but nobody wants to look at me one. My heart cried: "Hot ah! Hot ah!" On the surface it is very tranquil air, people refuse to see me squeamish had.
Next to me stood a dark skin, and facial features are very health of young Hmong-American woman. Her arms holding a little boy. I naturally stand up and ask her to sit down. Ying Ying said she face: "Do not sit, I quickly drew near." I stammered to sit down. Later, drove for a long time, I stood up two central her to sit down, she refused. The car has no one else to give her your seat. In my way of thinking seems a little strange, it gives me a little worried ... ...
Iraqis get off the train, apart from her embrace with the boy, buttocks back even went to the three little guys are not big.
Get off, and crowds fierce, I would soon be hosting the tide went, I was a mess to Tuizhuo Zou it. Vegetables, fruit, poultry, life, and the usual appliances, clothes, as well as the Miao costumes, hand-printed cloth thorns, cutting flowers, non-Zuyin jewelry.
I have fun in this beautiful before the loss of anyone, get lost in its own direction, but they found themselves.
Far the most attractive or those who wear traditional costumes on the age of Hmong women. I have to take pictures and their accosted. In front of my camera that they are shy and generous, there is an old-fashioned lively, lovely, both customs. I could imagine them when I was younger how charming, tempting!
While their plain clothes, if worn in today's young women who, because of Meiyu Jian lost much of my style, it monotonous. Those who are now young woman wearing a Flower Hmong dress to attract guests, but also nice, but there are some contrived nature of the performances. My heart a little bit worried about呀!
To the Mountain River national museums to see, harvest some useful things, well worth it. After I got out of a person resting in the museum entrance, I've met a phoenix county person. He asked me some questions, some of which I have answered Xiangyemoxiang: Shen Cong-wen. For example, why do you come here? Why do you not want to leave it?
Yes, yes Shen's words attracted me to be here. I felt a wonderful Phoenix. And Shen Congwen of Hunan style has been the time before putting a layer of ash. This, to me is a deeper level of temptation, I could not bear not to explore.
At Phoenix, past his heart small, Ying Ying's. Right now, although still the same weight, but a lot of big, soft a lot, and full of moisture.
7
In Phoenix the fourth day and fifth day, the world of the two attached two storms, Tuojiang water suddenly rose up, the color of muddy water muddy. Compared with sunny days, the rain of the Tuo Shen Congwen more like the kind of melody, giving people a little bit of concern.
I think that to truly understand the Shen Cong-wen, will need to understand that he's "a little worried." This is a simple but also extremely difficult. The guy we used to yell out loud: "I am depressed."
And Shen Cong-wen, in his time inside his head bent, bent over a table, saying that he unsteadily in a pen right time, right home, human sentimentality. Wrote emotionally of the Department, plus one "has a bit of anxiety" ... ...
8
Know a girl called KIKI. She said that perhaps because expectations are too high, Phoenix, and a far cry from her imagination.
The've been so many places themselves, the beautiful Phoenix is adequate, but is far from enough. It attracted enough to each, as I like the eyes of idealistic, let's slow down the pace. On the other hand, I think I can not stop.
Yu Shen Cong-wen, there is a deep nostalgia. To me, and I thank the Phoenix gave me the light and shade.
The world's great that everyone should have the best place to go. If someone can not find their own place, he shows that he was too confused. However, do not know many people place a lot. Some people will stopped, some people continue to search for. There is also a wise man, or are they also find their own place. For them, most of the world no matter how small.
I am in the twilight shut our eyes, eyes appeared out of Shen's passage:
"My heart is somehow as a fresh voice, fresh color, fresh smell and jumped. I have to know life outside of my life. My intellectual life should be from direct absorption of digestion, but not to be met from a good book, a good things come to school. "
- August 6, 2004 at Phoenix
