October 19-20 victory when Li went to hotel by car to pick us, we have another fellow who also changed from a small gull EVA, EVA is one of about 40-year-old German woman in Lhasa opened the first school for blind children, she not only familiar with the land on the grounds of Tibet loop mirror, more fluent in German, English, Chinese, Tibetan four kinds of language, so we have one more tour guide and translator.
Unfortunately, the first day of walking and EVA we get along very well, perhaps the Chinese and Western cultures differ, EVA skeleton is always going to the wall on our routes strongly oppose, but because we are chartered owner, but has repeatedly insisted that She had reluctantly peers, arguing along the way constantly.
I seemed to become increasingly intimate with the skirmishing between, and outdoor activities are always hard to take care of each other unconscious.
Lake in the sheep, we are far from the Tibetan area, to a remote lakeside bar tent, EVA since the day of the quarrel, refused to live with us a tent, Yong-sheng has also played a tent next to the branch.
At night, I was awakened by a pack of wolves whistle, almost lost the eyes and skirmishing must have heard this sound for a long time, see I woke up, he took my hand and whispered told us: Do not say anything, outside wolf.
I was scared, and hold your breath to hear Wai in a tent outside a few wolves, breathing on the close, visible under the moonlight shadow of the wolf. Haitao still asleep from time to time issued by Han Sheng, triggering a tent outside the wolf also smell of human breath, a wolf can not help but finally launched a frenzied attack on the tent, 50 cm, the Elang from time to time with the paws lifting These mud to exit the tent flap.
"Wake Up Haitao bar," I fear to the extreme.
"Do not call him, this danger may be that he did not know better," skirmishing stopped me, and maybe he thinks the danger in such a time would be better Haitao sleeping.
"No, we should wake him, one hand there is anything we can face together, and secondly, if the wolf rushed in, he can have a preparedness" for the first time I have differences with the views of skirmishing, he hesitated a moment, nod in favor of my views.
I reached in the past, patted the head Haitao, he quickly woke up.
"Do not say anything, outside the wolf." My face is also felt at this time to make Haitao, a serious situation.
In this way the stalemate, drooping wolf Wai in a tent outside, along the non-stop sniffing around the tent.
"Retractable feet to" skirmishing attached to my ear whispered, so I will be feet bound in a league up and hidden in the quilt. Sure enough, Wai several wolves in the tent outside the mouth suddenly rank up from the tent edges bite.
A motionless, time went past, we began to regret them, I really should not be in such remote areas, bar tents, in case the outside in. We are not even a wolf attacks on people who can not find help.
Tiankuai Liang, when suddenly the wolf outside the tent to give up our search to the distance run to date, listen to the voice, as if to catch up by another animal.
"Is the possession of consumption," skirmishing guess the Ba Jiufen.
"Tibetan consumption, we have to save the" I told Haitao, a sigh of relief at the same time, in our view, perhaps more frightening Wolf consumption than Tibet. "No, possession of consumption is a shepherd and yak hybrid, a possession of consumption arrived three wolf, it is more cruel than the wolf." Skirmishing whispered to say.
"That's how to do?" Never have so miss those Tibetans, I even began to have fantasies of one or two to get up early grazing will open a tent to see if we Tibetans.
Fear quickly disappeared, possession of consumption of the lake to catch up with the Elang run and did not pay attention to our tent. Morning 7:00, skirmishing put on clothes Shuliaokouqi said to us: know what? Just as long as there is a wolf burst into the scene, we would be finished.
Dawn, we went to Tibetan area asked if they know something last night, Wolf, many Tibetans say that we live in a place so far away, of course dangerous.
I turned to see a beautiful Tibetan girls are fetching water lake, then ran her over the past Yaogen photo, but unfortunately is not willing to reason how I Na Shaonv, skirmishing also attentive to help teenage girls walked over to lay a bucket full of water the morning of the big lake waves, water is also cool. Lake wet clothes and shoes, but he does not care, but honest to the Na Shaonv said: According to a bar with her, we are very sincere.
Car should be repaired, EVA went to help the Tibetans trailer. There Tibetans asked EVA, your friends are Tibetans or Chinese, EVA is Han Chinese, Tibetans hear it shaking his head, "Chinese we do not help, they are all Han Chinese, the" these words, he is also out a little finger gestures . EVA is also out of his little finger like learning to say: Now my friends car broke, and ask you to help, you say bad is the Han Chinese, and now you do not help you is this "
EVA, then perhaps played a role, the Tibetan people have finally agreed to help trailer, but still not a small sum we received the trailer fee.
Trailers do not play any role, in the evening when the car is still not fixed, but unfortunately we can only under the lake in the sheep to stay one more night.
Jeep broken, and Li Sheng car repair, we are bored in the sheep wandering lake. I ran to buy sugar, they found candy here is surprisingly cheap, the money actually can buy a 25 toffee, I am pleased to put candy in our hands to help me take pictures skirmishing.
Then a blur of faded Huoshao Yun hidden lake in sheep, we turned to was that the US-Can Hong stunned.
November 21 when we have reached a three-day trip, we rented a car finally started to complain about how bad off-road vehicles, stopping along the way from time to time a significant reduction in maintenance of the mood of our journey.
Dealers early to Nagqu areas, the jeep again in a bridge, where a halt. The weather was fine late, we thought another car was broken down, and looked out the fleet a Li-sheng after they turn around and shouted to us: There are dangerous, fast Bump! !
I was scared the driver in a trembling voice, and looked out the window and saw a jeep into the left rear of the bridge, the cracks in crumbling, as long as the body has been shaking and then it will fall into more than 100 meters deep under the bridge. Bridge is filled with rocks, the situation is very urgent, if the car fell to the then lead to disastrous consequences.
EVA and Haitao has been cautiously open the door down, and when the body began to shake, I hesitated a moment on the skirmish, said, "You go first, my last." I do not know why is keenly aware that there is indeed life-threatening, or is willing to opportunities for survivors left him.
Skirmish did not move, a little bit of the location of the middle Tan Dao car "Do not wear increased, you brisk walking," he shouted to me anxious, turned out he was using the body weight to maintain vehicle balance.
We all jumped out of the car, we began to wait anxiously at the roadside would like to have a passing vehicle can extricate us from the crisis, cold night, in order to reduce body weight, to prevent the body drop, skirmishing, and Hai-Tao Also ran the car to the solution of luggage. I went to the car, I hope you can catch them to unload the thing, skirmishing, and Haitao on me not to come here very dangerous, they could fall at any time to go.
I looked at them standing on the roof, the heart that jumped to their throats, prayer, constant prayer, do not what happened. When the skirmish peaceful walk and to get off to a coat draped over my body, the tears streaming down unstoppable. Since then I came to understand, that they are not afraid of his fear of death but the separation.
To the county for example, is dark, we had possession of the homes on the roadside to find a night staying.
This is a family of five, Zhang surname Tibetan wife and three daughters by running a small shop for a living. From the door, he's three daughters will be curious to see around us, maybe this place has always been there very few strangers, not to mention EVA was a foreigner, if we are hungry refugees in general, quickly eat the noodles Wu Wan and asked Mr. Zhang can also eat things that came, though, Mr. Chang thought they took out some Zan rake face, I do not know whether we can eat the usual practice of skirmishing carefully hand-washed, it begins to die as a decent Zan rake, Mr. Zhang's three daughters are still hiding in the columns look like after watching can not help but laugh at awkward skirmish.
"You have to stand a few sisters, I can help you take pictures, OK," I took a digital camera to give the Tibetans skirmishing daughters to take photographs To her surprise, they do not understand Chinese, to see me pick up the camera, already scared and ran away.
I finally take advantage of them to pay attention to when the snap to that little girl, when I showed her the imaging camera, when one, several girls are incredible up front of their parents cry. They look at the expression I guess the surprise, perhaps this is the first time they saw digital camera.
October 22 has finally come Nagqu regions, such as County, say the village. There are more than say that the village is extremely difficult to walk a dirt road, our car was stuck in the muddy depressions. Later, with the help of a group of Tibetan students were able to back on the road. When arrived at our destination skull, the time they had three in the afternoon.
This is a small temple, a burial long ago, Tibetans have held here. At the time Tianzang Shi habit of opening the human skull buried stay the course of time that people in the temple to save the head with these amendments into a wall, named: Skull wall.
We gave the temple monks a lot of money, and that a lot of good things, that the old monk who reluctantly took one of the keys to bring us into the mountain in front of a small room.
"Do not take pictures," he repeatedly declared.
The door opened, my eyes presents a terrible picture, several hundred of the dead skull set out in the wall of a row of wooden, some skulls still remains the teeth, and some skulls were used ink strokes on the of the glasses and eyebrows, so that the picture is too rare a saw, and we would like to take pictures and Mongolia made the idea.
"How much is a photograph?" Because this made it clear that before the old monk to take pictures is sold separately Contributions, and skirmishing took out the camera could not help but want to take pictures.
"1 100" old monk's mouth to say sky-high price.
"Too expensive" We feel the price is quite a stretch.
Talked about for a long time, the old monk in the price issue is not promoted, under the anger, we have decided not to shoot as soon leave.
From the top down when the skirmishing has been head down do not speak.
"How do you, is not it not shoot photos feel very depressed?" I came to ask him.
"Yes, finally come to time, such a scenario is also a long and almost invisible, non-拍几张照片back to determine the pity," said the skirmish.
"Walking, we now go back, I accompany film," I do not regret to see him and immediately pulled him back away.
"You really have to accompany me to go back?" Skirmishing children generally immediately laughed, he took out 100 pocket money in front of me shook his: "There are 100 in my pocket, just taking pictures of the money"
Once again, we go back, the old monk's attitude is more cold, take pictures of the price rise has become 200, and I squatted on either side of skirmishing also said that a lot of good things around him, he agreed to, 100 film 2, one can only shoot two.
When we finished pictures once again return, EVA, Hai-Tao and Li-Sheng have been waiting for us at the foot of the mountain for a long time. Li Yong-sheng said that we must lose no time to hurry, from such a very bad way to go back, if the delay time, I'm afraid to be dark days.
Car started, and I sat in car after skirmishing excitement out his camera to shoot photos to find out just what Zhang contrast is good, what Zhang bad. Yuehua Jian car is stopped, and Yong-sheng says angrily bad luck, this type of vehicle side at this time, running out of oil.
Haitao off drilling, Yong-sheng to the back of a van stopped by the oil, EVA has also taken off to breathe, and only me and skirmishing continues unabated mood viewing photos. Yuehua Jian, I was standing back to see Li-Sheng retro with the owner of the van before saying something. Car, suddenly began to slowly slip backwards, the more slippery the sooner, the more slippery the sooner, all my memories are fixed between the cells in that Yi Cha.
October 26th When I woke up, as did field a dream, actually saw in the dream of my father and brother, this is the dream and how they will appear in Tibet, many people on my side is called Wai with my name, I wish to respond, but Zhang Bukai mouth, quickly, then fainted.
Consciousness again when I wake up, only the eyes can be the upper and lower body activities. Unable to speak, but crazy like Quche found a variety of electrodes and pipelines, and my father was petrified of my moves, and he talk to the doctor, who said that now do not speak, do not know my mandible Are there broken, as many foreign body fractures and falls, which reflects the very dangerous for a long time if the re-awareness of a sober, then easily give rise to an integrated post-fracture complications, may also be a vegetative state.
Dad sat next to me non-stop talk to me I do not know how long he said, I finally had a thought also came to understand: "daughters, and so your disease is cured a father to you to write a book the title is called his daughter, dad to take you home when the father stood up, I finally choke reddening, Zhang openings: Dad, you worked hard.
"No hard, not hard, my daughter can speak, I met the" Dad at this time is the old man in tears. Hear me awake, and the ward had a sudden influx of many people.
"Know do not know me?" A boy standing in front of me.
"You are lonely words" I like the little girl babbling like to say his name, he called isolated line is my User Shenzhen. Widow know that I recognize him immediately moist eyes, and turned around, I saw tears in his eyes.
"Know me?" Another boy came over crowded, "Lao Chai," I laugh when people call out his name, he burst into tears.
Then came his brother, his face has cried marks.
"Brother, I am all right, quite good," I smiled to comfort him.
After my brother to see me when classmates told me that my brother returned home with them at the mention my Shihai unstoppable tears: You do not know who saw my sister Zaozui looked really distressed. Not wait for her lying there, there are so many crimes to me was also stronger than resting on her ah. "
Wards filled with flowers, and my father showed me a bunch of beam both hands, and told me that person's name presented: Feng Wei Lao Ge, snow Kangni Ma, Li Xiao-Jing, small Europe, the former peak. . . . .
Know that I have regained consciousness and begun to identify people, the hospital's doctors rush over, again, for me to do medical check-up. At this point I found his legs were a long wire on the 8th through the knee, lifted in the air, but I do not feel a trace of pain.
"Mocha, this is Dr Lau, Shuai Shuai not?" A small hospital as nurses, as Hong Xiaohai amuse me.
"Handsome, Dr Lau is a big handsome guy" I would laugh when everyone afternoon, uncle also arrived in Lhasa, he also brought three colleagues who, a driver, a chest specialist, an orthopedic specialist.
"Uncle" I saw his uncle, the man had been awake a lot, like to laugh to see him, he discovers that his uncle had been tears.
The two doctors accompanied his uncle to come up with a lot of medical equipment, medical check-ups begin for me.
"Here it hurt?" Orthopedic specialist knock my legs, I shook my head, not hurt, there is no reflection of
"Here it hurt?" Breaststroke specialist press by my left chest. Pain, I wow the Shengjiao out of the chest at incomparable throes.
"In the case cite this hand," I raised my left hand.
"As another move right hand" there is no reflection of my right hand.
"You're nothing in order and just a good recuperate, uncle will bring you back to the hospital to find the best, the best doctor to help you treat, do not worry let's try to find the best." Uncle patted my face with comfort me, and he told me, you rest assured that everything that Uncle.
Uncle and his father out of the room to talk about my condition when the unit came a girl's voice outside, "Where are you Yeah, I can not find" is Chen Chen.
I did not think in this case, to meet with her, Chen Chen entered the ward arrived, I looked at her smiled: "I'm sorry, December 8 with you I can not go to Beijing to pay a draft.
"I rely on, mocha, you also fell and this boom and bust enough calendar harm, and actually still fell to the what the Nagqu like go"
Chen Chen with the phone or does it like scolded me and saw my first favorite surface is still not changed.
"You are well and recuperate on the bar, the other I came to juggling his" Chen Chen side to lay down their backpacks while comfort me.
Widow and Lao Chai also came to greet with Chen Chen, evidently they have on the phone to contact before.
Widow told me after my accident, is Haitao saved me and opened up my sister's phone, Shenzhen User rowboat asked her to assist in contacting my family, so stir up the whole Shenzhen editions. My brother and father arrived in Lhasa on the 25th hospital when I was in a coma.
Know that I woke up, and a small gull, small Xu and former peaks have arrived at the hospital to do. Xiao-ou brought a small CD recording machine, then bring his small Xu Acoustic Mandolin used.
"I have brought several copies of" Huaxi "Come on, you like to listen to stories I will give you read." Chen Chen found a chair sitting next to me wanted me to listen to stories, reduce some pain.
She read half, my chest began to hurt the terrible, inability to concentrate, read on.
"I'll give you my song," Lao Chai is too small to take the promised Mandolin started for me, as a general Acoustic guitar up.
Small Xu has not been talking, and so on Lao Chai finished singing, he took Mandolin, said: "Mocha, I have for you to sing it, write my own songs, I hope you a speedy recovery"
"Mocha, there is little they can see your painting art?" Little gull came to ask me.
"What painting? I have not seen," I replied that she had just woke up what is not seen painting.
"I look for to see" little gull found in a drawer in the ward stack of drawing paper, the original of that in my mouth a few days, the small Xu and small gulls in the ward accompanied me sometimes painted.
Each picture on both written words: sick Mocha, Mocha on the bed, smiling Mocha, Mocha Potala Palace. There are few nurses in the hospitals of small portraits of the original that they saw a small portrait of HUI I also ran a small Xu help please painting.
"Thank you little Xu," I said sincerely.
Small Xu's blush, "I do not speak, do not know what to say, but I hope you get better quickly speedy recovery bar"
The evening, when two strange men walked in I was satisfied that I went to bed after mocha, said: "Hello, you are mocha it, we are" stragglers "of the family."
"Skirmishing? Skirmishing how like it?" My voice has not landed Chen Chen then rushed past, "ah, yes, she had just woke up today, his mind is not sober, you have something with me Well "Two words Bianba the two pushed out, and my heart hanging up, skirmishing in what? How kind he has. Since then, I started a second of time waiting for a number of the Chen Chen to come back.
"He's kind of how the" Chen Chen a bus back to the ward I could not help but ask.
"Skirmishing what you said that Guiyang's boy?" Chen Chen did not answer me, and unexpectedly asked.
"Yes, he has trouble it? Him how he was," I have completely forgotten the circumstances at the time, only please tell me skirmishing Chen Chen status quo.
"He said, he's injured more light than you had with him two uncle back to Guiyang, the" Chen Chen smiled and replied me, and went on; "I have left their phone, and waiting for me when good can give their home phone "
I believe the words of Chen Chen heart of a stone was finally put down, when a small gull sensational music, ward song reminds Adu
October 27, and two uncles professor of medicine at the hospital's leadership hoped to make my back to Shenyang treatment, Lhasa, military leaders are firmly opposed to the hospital, they say, when I was unconscious at any time of danger, now that I have Gangxing, no too dangerous period, if a problem half-way hospitals are unable to shoulder this responsibility.
And uncle to come along with the two professors have always believed that Tibet's medical conditions and climate is not suitable three decades of practice experience, they guarantee that if there is any danger on the road can immediately contact the hospital or to take urgent measures, the hospital had agreed to be considered transfers.
Against my illness, after several doctor's discussion, it was decided: Gypsum labeled as an eggshell-shaped stretcher mounted inside me, air transport back to Shenyang.
As patients require airlines plane apart eight seats in advance, so his brother and uncle then ran out and contact the driver of the Lhasa airport to our boarding issues.
My serious condition, hospital temporary deployment of four nurses, as my special care, when I awake, four little nurse ran to chat with me, watching the happy chattering of their appearance, in my mind, moved a while, if I really does not wake up, they may be sad for me, sorry.
Bean was a funny little love nurse, when nothing will be sitting next to me chatting with me in my repeated request she told me the injury: legs and fractures, multiple fractures pelvis, two broken ribs, right shoulder bones and fractures, blood pneumothorax.
"You're a great life, in a coma for so many days, survived, and even the doctors say is a miracle." Peas breath talking so much, but I quietly lay there motionless.
"Bean, I'll be handicapped?" I looked at the room of those flowers, I do not know how their own future, "is unclear, but you do not have lumbar and cervical spine injury that this is the midst of sadness, if the operation successful, should be no problem "
"Thank you Bean," I could not help but cough up, Doudou He holds a rubber tube inserted immediately my throat for my Suction.
Haitao and then to the hospital to see me, I'm ready to eat a simple flow of food.
"Are you better?" He half-head down, biting his lips deliberately put on a happy look, but no way to hide his eyes, it is a kind of sadness that only I can read.
"Hai, I really did not expect that we would be like this outcome" think I have hurt with the skirmish, I know that Hai's heart must also extremely sad.
"Take good recuperate bar mocha, I would like to go back to the" Haitao so easy to do to alleviate Shulekouqi a heavy heart.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm going back to Australia, and may later have the opportunity to meet the estimated time of your injury has also been good," Hai told me how he, "I really could not help but again asked skirmishing.
"He? Ah well, he has been with his uncle back to Guiyang, the" right Haitao look of relaxed, then said: "You are a good rest and recuperation, the other not to think too much of your body well."
. Haitao left. My consciousness is becoming clear, you can chat with the solitary line, you can listen to Chen Chen read novels, you can also listen to Lao Chai singing, Chen Chen to see my long hair knotted in his head, there are many congestion coagulation in the scalp, Widow will be a hold up with my head, brought a pair of scissors, cut my hair. Half an hour later, my long hair into a homogeneous one ear short hair, long hair fall, my heart burst desolate, to the long hair fluttering, the still do not know how long. Haircut when the Widow and Chen Chen also have simply been one of the Dazui Zhang, I did not go, they laugh, at that time, I was surrounded by their friendship.
"Chen Chen, I want a nurse hat," I Chen Chen said that this two days to see a small nurse used to look beautiful, I also want to remain the top nurse hat as souvenirs.
Chen Chen immediately ran out and found a small nurse said that he hoped that they gave me a nurse cap, the hospital's doctors and nurses to respond to them immediately, they not only sent me a nurse cap, nurse cap still rushed in for the sign I wish I a speedy recovery.
"Mocha, do not forget that we Oh," Bean to nurse hat to me to say, when his face solemn.
"Definitely will remember you," I promise.
Everybody is busy father's cell phone rang, the name of a User inquiries about the circumstances of my injury, and then listen carefully when someone seems to Shenzhen version of donations for me, and my father immediately rejected, saying that things in our family for medical expenses itself can be resolved.
Widow later told me that in my mouth a few days in Shenzhen netizens are worried about me and spontaneous and organized donations for my initiative, especially Danny, who admitted to the hospital to find me, they asked the Tibetan 2 friends in my time in hospital ran several hospitals looking for me, has always been frustrating to the middle of the night.
November 8, 2003 Mocha Hello,
See this letter, explain your situation has stabilized. You say skirmishing, you, I meet a margin, but unfortunately the development of unexpected things. I just want to say you are a very strong girl, is your own death with the will to overcome.
In addition, you have a lot of friends during hospitalization to help hand out the award, EVA, a small gull, the former peak, small wish, small Xu, Rong-feng some of you may not be familiar with, as well as your friends in Shenzhen, Feng Wei teachers , snow Kang Nima had sent a blessing. Everyone you impressed by the will to overcome difficulties, I hope you recuperate in the process also continues to change their attitude and do not live up to all of your expectations.
There is also a CD-ROM is the skirmishing was filmed a few days. Unfortunately, he was light for Zanlia shot, and not have their own pictures inside.
Well, finally relax, I wish you a speedy recovery estimated at that time I have at home.
Haitao, October 26, 2003, when I saw the letter has been brought back to his family in Shenyang China Medical large, medical professor at several major injuries directed at me, developed through consultation operative time was November 11.
Her mother brought back from the brother's luggage found a notebook and have been throwing rotten letter also read the letter when the tears fall down, I was very sensitive to the text, although Haitao, in his letter did not mention a single word skirmish injuries, I am still in the two sentences from the letter to come to understand the heartache and frustration to the Haitao:
"You say skirmishing, you, I meet a margin, but unfortunately the development of unexpected things."
"There's a CD-ROM is the skirmishing was filmed a few days. Unfortunately, he took Zanlia light for people without their own pictures on the inside."
Haitao Why would say that the development of unexpected things, why there is no disc inside pictures of skirmishing became sorry. Is it what's wrong skirmishing. I'll let my mother brought mobile phones to call Chen Chen, and asked her if she had to help me see the skirmish, from Shenyang, back when she promised me to help me back to Guiyang, contact skirmish when the uncle and let the skirmish with the I call.
"Mocha, I'm sorry Oh, I just returned from Beijing a few days, where their home is not easy to find, you wait another few days, okay?" Chen Chen on the phone told me sorry.
"Ah, you must remember to see him, do not forget to let him call me" off the phone, I already know that Chen Chen lying to me, and she did not ask me skirmishing home address, how to know him hard to find it at home.
"Hai, you tell me how kind of him in the end?" I called her Haitao, try to calm the tone, let him feel my sadness.
"He? He was not with his uncle back to Luoyang it?" Had returned to Australia, Hai-Tao did not think I would suddenly asked the whereabouts of skirmishing, he hesitated, another answer when I could not conceal a confusion between the words.
My heart began to fall into the bottom like a stone sink, then sink. Haitao do not know if he was wrong when skirmishing answer my hometown, is not Guiyang Luoyang.
I lay on the bed with tears none of that happened issuing messages to a small gull:
Xiao-ou, request you, please you must tell me where the skirmish, he was kind of how in the end.
Xiao-ou very long without talking back, I had second rounds of small gulls, our friends in a, in any event you please tell me the truth please?
10 minutes back to the small gull finally talking back a "mocha, we are all adults, and some things that should have the courage to face is that right? We all believe you are strong."
"Skirmishing is dead is not it?" I have the courage to enter the message was sent out again.
Looked at the ceiling, tears, a silent fall, I have to choke back with a quilt cover the face, do not give their parents to see the eyes full of tears, but the more tolerate and can not hold back a few minutes later I finally burst into tears up .
"How, and how, is not that the letter should not have to show her, I have done something wrong?" Mom Ben rush over.
From small to large, I am a person who does not like tears. Lhasa was discharged from the accident to play, from Lhasa to Chengdu, from Chengdu, Shenyang, then along the way, was moved around on a stretcher, the body broken bones, wounds, pain, throes, biting pain, but also has never been called before your voice does not fall off a tear.
Fractures of the man next door to ward pain barking every night, my mother asked me, it hurts you. I said: I have pain, ask what's the use of crying, and told not do anything to alleviate the pain, hurt you had to endured.
For the first time to see me cry, my mother a panic.
"How, this is how the" father came was when I scare.
"He's dead, mother, he was dead," I can not help their own cries of grief were all an outbreak of them at that moment.
"Who? You say who? Who died?" Mom did not catch my words, she found a few paper towels to help me rub eyes began to tear. However, the fundamental nor can it block a few paper towels to my tears, I would like the cry aloud, these tears I had put in for too long.
"Guiyang, Guiyang, in a car accident that when the dead," I cried and cried, pointing his chest told his mother, my pain, where pain, here is different from the body, yes I have unbearable pain.
"Who told you? How do you know?" Father's face changed, and he thought everyone's security work has been done well, never thought I know.
"Liar, you are the liar, you knew he was dead, that is, taken together, do not tell me is not it? I hate you, you are the liar," I can not control their emotions, I hate all of them, they conceal of skirmishing's death, let me naive to believe that skirmish is really only minor injuries, I am still waiting for that one day he will be holding flowers appear in my ward, no, everything is just imagination, forever gone, skirmishing will never come back, he has never lost in this world.
"Do not Zaiku, and had surgery a few days, and your body finally was restored, and then go on how an operation like crying?" Her mother crying, she did not know the skirmish, though it pained her daughter, This daughter was distraught she had never seen before.
"I do not surgery, and did not enter the operating room, and all of which I have no sense of"
I muttered to himself in bed.
"You do not want surgery? I can not believe these words from your mouth to tell you, I and your brother, your uncle, your User, as well as a professor at the hospital, you think we took so many twists and turns in order to What, you Zhengou can, to think, "Dad leave these words, they were so angry out of the ward.
By this time, the ward jammed hear my cry the doctors and nurses came running.
Out ", please you all out" I'm no longer a smile on their day of mocha, mocha today's sad for them down the Zhu Keling, I hate them, hate all of them, I just want a quiet man to face the death of skirmishing.
"Mother, why, God, why be so for me, I finally was in love with a man who was so dead," All the people were gone, I asked her mother, tears, why is it such a conclusion.
"Tell Mom, you really love him?" Mom asked me.
"Yes, I love him, but he was dead, mother, he was dead, God is too cruel for me, and it really fair, it really fair" Lichen head still crying I was my mother in her arms, she did not and then speak to a mother's love and hugs to accompany her daughter's grief.
Midnight, I was also hiding in the house in tears. Open the phone, find skirmishing phone, playing the past, the phone is turned off, I started lying on the quilt to the skirmish-fat message:
You said, if I like the Shanghai Pudong went looking for you, if I like you come to the SAR, Shenzhen, come to me, but before I tell you like where you have gone to heaven, I can not find paradise road, so I can not wait until you are doomed.
The next day, I still give skirmish fat message:
I was very critically injured, the pain would wake up every night, you in heaven looking at me? Give me some support let me live.
On the third day I do not know where you are buried, Shanghai, or Guiyang, so I can stand up to see you when.
On the fourth day I was finally pushed the operating room, outside the operating room jammed with my relatives and family.
Nine and a half hours later, when I was again and launch it from the operating theater, a lot of my relatives went to the toilet in tears.
Surgery that night, doctors brought emergency anesthetic case, saying that if the middle of the night when the pain unbearable, click, can ease the pain, midnight, I woke up after the mother said: "Mother, do not that anesthetic box, I survive it shelter "
On the third day after surgery, the wounds are no longer painful.
"Dad, help me to find some paper and a pen to pen, I find you? I would like to write something," I said to the father.
My father sent for pen and paper began to listen to my narrative:
Do you believe in reincarnation? I believe that is why I am convinced that this life will meet with you again. But I have to wait long before re-met you, even if met, you will not remember my present.
I spent two days to complete the narrative of a story: "A fairy's pre-existence of present and future."
The end of surgery two weeks later I was discharged, and people have a lot of silence.
Back to the parting of the home has been a long time, a lot of childhood partners come look at me. Lili is my best friend, she was sitting on my bedside. Looked at me and hands, faces and bodies because of this accident and the scars left behind by more than tears, she said that I would have never thought of this calamity, looked at me lying on the bed look is pained not stop the tears.
我笑笑对她说：我也不奢望以后能不能再跳舞，双腿会不会留残也不去想那么多了。有时候，我们并不知道自己的承受力有多大，当灾难来临的时候，再苦也只有挺住，别无选择。
海涛打来电话，问我恢复的如何，我又问起那天车祸后的情形，他终于肯告诉我，当时车坠下三百多米，是他和EVA追到山下救起了我和散兵，散兵断了几根肋骨，由于血流到肺里在当晚八点的时候就去世了。我被他和EVA送到那曲的小医院时，血压只有三十几,EVA给我输了400cc血救了我的命，后来我的形势渐渐不好时，海涛拨打了小鸥的电话，在小鸥等人的联络和帮助下我才被转到了拉萨医院。
“那散兵。。。你知道他葬在哪里吗”我故意将自己的语气放轻松，不给海涛压力。
“在拉萨火化了，骨灰被他叔叔带回到贵阳。”海涛告诉我，好象我们从拉萨回成都的时候与散兵的伯伯们搭乘了同一班飞机。
“等我可以站起来的时候就去贵阳看他”忽然想到我与散兵的骨灰居然是同一班飞机回家时，我的心又痛了起来。
“我知道你会这么说，也会这么做的”海涛说。
“为什么，你怎么知道我会这么说？”
“可能，凭我对你的了解吧。”
“谢谢你海涛”我忍住自己，不许哭。
海涛说，从西藏回去以后，他整个人变了许多。我说我也变了，可能这也是一种成熟吧。
已回到沈阳工作的孤行也打电话来问我恢复的如何，我已经可以自己坐起来了，要想走路可能还要四个月的时间，孤行笑笑说我的生命力太顽强了，照这样的恢复，他保证四个月后我都可以成飞人了。
停頓了一下孤行又说：佟儿，你知道吗，从拉萨把你救回来，再看到你现在一点点恢复的这么好，我的心里真的是。 . .不知道怎么说。
“看着我一点点过活来，生命又延续了，很开心是吗？孤行，我真的很感动也很感谢你”我叹了口气，经历了这场生死，才真正的感受有朋友的关心是件很幸福的事。
琛琛依旧会在电话里骂我：“什么？你已经可以自己坐起来了？我靠，摩卡，你是不是人啊，恢复的也太快了吧。
琛琛，海涛两位陪我一同从生死线上走回来的朋友，我已不再怪他们。也许正是他们善意的隐瞒了散兵的死，我才有勇气回到沈阳。
最后：
这些天，我躺在床上被一团书包围住，开始试着学填词，钗头凤是我第一首词，也是为散兵而作。
黄泉路，孟婆汤，孤魂一饮两相忘，奈何桥，鬼门关，锁我孤身离恨云天。哭哭哭。
阴曹府，地狱门，从此殊途生死别，夜无眠，人不寐，渔雁难传相思泪痕。泣泣泣。
“感谢上天，今天活着的是我，痛着我也是我，如果叫他来忍受这一分又一分的长夜，那我是万万不肯的。幸好这些都没轮到他，要是他像我这样的活下去，那么我拼了命也要跟上帝争了回来换他”
十年前看遍了三毛的书曾为了她的心伤的文字感动，十年后再读三毛时，才真正体会到她的痛，那种来自心底的痛不同于身体，无以言表。
文字写到这里，心又痛了起来。
散兵在拉萨火化那天，我还在鬼门关口游荡，也许是上帝怜我，不想让我睁着眼面对这种骤然的分离，如果亲眼面对他的死亡，我想我会哭得昏死过去。
七天，从相识到分离只有七天的时间，我们却经历了生死离别，10月22日，还有一个月就是散兵的生日了，他的生命在二十六岁有了永远的定格，而我的人生增加了许多回忆，思念和痛苦。
两个月了，散兵是否已在天堂安息，如果可以，我真希望我们从未有遇见过，那样我就可以祈祷，他是健康快乐的。
这是转载的！
太感人了！ ! ! !
Author: calors1900
