To Beijing, and to the capital, and do not know what will happen? Be happy? Be alone? Low self-esteem do feel insignificant? China's large cities seem to have been to, and it is not the mission, but life, was fortunate or unfortunate? Does not seem at home, and do not know where our roots, felt very empty very empty. . Beijing great, really great, including the people's block header, in a crowd, she felt so small, so insignificant, but out a first generation of film, some of the funny.
Many talented people in Beijing, the air was filled with the smell of the north as the warm, yet puzzled look around and find some familiar feeling. Transform the city too much, uh, uh, put the feelings of so many, but also how much passion can be squandered? Too tired, and my heart, too confused, and his face, too helpless, and a smile, Taiwei Qu, and eyes. Sensitive antennae has been almost completely polished, pure state of mind has been almost completely cut too Qilingbaluo. What else can I dream?
Revive it, calm it, red eye socket then red, since autumn, and winter draws near, and one year after year, time is not live sand grip. Face it, insist on it, smile, smile again, the next spring rain, and spring to be far away, just do not know what stands behind the spring-like winter ah.
Unable to, ah, ah cut off, and my heart empty, with the disposal of life, and I have been a sinner by. Saddled with years of injury, emotional debt, the pressure of life. Complain, feeling what upset what is not all that true? We live for everyone. Gently came and went quietly, and can be brought into the coffin had what looked at the Star, time left for me What should treasure the wealth of what I yearn, I aspire to what I now what to do.
Come, with the planes, and mood rejoice, but Qieqie are unable to face what I can give, but also committed to anything, qualify? Can be joy in the eyes so that the mirror can not help tears Lian Lian, Dancer in the Dark dawn in the face of that moment how this happened, struggling with the contradictions and painful frustration, and how the face of a passionate soul, can not think, can not think, the heart has been heavy pressure, asphyxia was unable to breathe, it really hurts.
2 years of strangers living in a strange city, not bear to think. Too many changes, too many people, too many things too complicated state of mind. Two years later, is in how each person lives. Go with the wind. . . I will repay, I swear, with my soul. .
The distant, distant, and looking back they waved, not breathing, close to the heart ?? tight, can not let the hearts of sorrow and grief pan up with red eyes, wet fundus. . What kind of a ritual, for we have no future, for our future feelings, would there have been all, all a few moving and sweet and sad are buried bar slowly, slowly sprinkle soil layer. . Another layer. . Until they are completely submerged, and then no one can see, no one concerned about the mention in time, it would only smile. . Have passed, would you? Should be yes.
As dusk room, no lights, little by little, watching the light fade from the eyes, darkening until it disappears. Sad melody for heart slowly sink, sink, time is not, and sadly for the tragedy. . Time, of course, do not live in the hands grip the sand, the leakage from the fingers forever until no longer the sight. .
To know the outcome of the story, but also transform the dedication, the process of rewriting the story, there is necessary? Really sad ah, this man's world, this world people. A change in mentality of it, get that belongs to me, to lose and they are not belong to me. However, I may be a more positive note, the outcome of the story can not be changed, perhaps we can let each day in the life course had some of the fun.
Or wanted to him, wake up every morning of that moment, my mind is full of him, no matter what is in the busy, he always smiled heart of the watch standing, he blink of an eye, he's eating Dakoutaikou , his deft waving spatula, he focused on the computer next to the busy, he pressure in the heart, I have some hard pressed presses, chest is always some stuffy. . .
Is the love Let me forget the time and then love again lost time.
His e-mail so that my heart really hurts, it really hurts. Tears not a good showing of the earthquake-driven waves, wet heart, wet world. I miss him, I like him, but I know that I will eventually have to forget him, he is, he would have belonged to his bride, he would tender love for her, take care of him, care of her, I will eventually be turned over to and me? My fate has been very clear, I have nothing to expect, there is no better joy always been a lifetime, perhaps, like depression, such as the present and the past, like layers of moods, such as the past and现在. . .
Today is my birthday, ah, Lord. . .
People are adept at forgetting and adaptation to environment, ah, I think a year later, there is in the minds of Guangzhou's life could already fragmented and crushed it, do not want to, ah, do not want, ah, ah can not be reconciled, but also do? Time will force me to forget, but I really do not want to, really do not want. . .
This two-day mood seems to change with the slightest wonderful, wonderful feeling themselves well clear, knowing that they would have passed, really know what is going to fade very quickly, but did not dare think about it, want him to tears, to his despair, think he's sad, how can I do ah, how to face him, and how to face as a warm and innocent and attached to the soul, while he had to face, how should it helpless, sad-Cang pain. .
All sorts of things that worry has also been has not been resolved, I would not wait an instant death, and no more reason for all this earthly pain and trouble between. Is sterile, right? Always thinking of death, why not do a fantasy freely flying birds, but in fact do any earthly good will between the life I fear, because there would always be waiting for the catastrophe at the front of the constant torment of life, in fact do what does not do the same pain? As long as this earth to survive.
Today, parents come to the phone, there is a long time did not call home, is not in the mood, only the person's favorite torture, and a bad bar. Beijing is a city of boiling people to create a dream, everyone strides in this city every corner of the frustrating efforts to realize their own dreams, bold, exaggerated, courageous, without fear, let my inner coward who can not help thinking that some Sparrow Sparrow very important.
In fact, do not like how down so many painful things that has always haunted me, and I have always been in the habit of this work, the love, by our own days of torture for so many years, and a good tired ah. How to adjust their own attitude to face and change? Bearish some, is the best way, but it has been difficult to achieve. But also something seriously, but also calm bearish, really Burongyia do not believe, do you try to do? However, still have to strive to do, otherwise how can we do? Nanbu Cheng do you really want to die?
Tomorrow decided to buy some painting materials to give that they have some of his own sustenance. Work or how to on how to do it, make every effort, but seek God's will allow me to survive this hard time bar.
Some days it seems better, and the feeling of loneliness is also a strong day by day together, there is no allows you to rely on the arm that lets you staring eyes, so you kiss on the lips. Just want to have people like it, to chat I can, and what not to do, and some have been intimidated by their own ideas.
DAVID When I was a gyro on the winding, always in accordance with his wishes to the rotation, worn out and they can not stop. Is the gyro's fault it, clockwork if broken out? However, the gyro have to do to stop what? Gyro may be required to warranty a bar, anyway, always warranty, and then point it at the old bar, in fact, it is also fast, right?
And you have an appointment for three months after contact, and you really will listen to, but in fact I really wanted to do so, from the bottom of my heart, I know that it is impossible for you and me, I can not harm you, not delay you, since I can not give you and me a future, only time will dilute our feelings, to listen to three months is not too long, but enough to make you and I come in after the deadline will not be too heart pain, Let the three-month transitional period of our strike.
You really are a serious and simple people ah unwilling to give me a lot of pressure, you really afraid that I'm so sorry, what heard my ah, I know your pain, your expectations, your helplessness, nothing in front of outsiders always said, you are a man, you said that you want to for my sake of. Since I can not and would not open, you will not let my dilemma, give me pressure, but you know what? Pressure in my mind ah, because I like you too like ah.
But I was wrong, I thought three months, I can calm the emotions have passed, you do not even know that phone hung up in the final moments, my heart suddenly quiet, and I thought I was finally able to leave the to you, you can return to his quiet side, and I think that although I sorry, but no choice of the pain. But, but. . . I do not know, the original every night every night, I have repeatedly in the wish to you, your sad face in front of me, so I can not hide, I really quick collapse ah.
Really wanted to want you, I even think about the future of our married life together, which is how to spend, I very much take care of you,好想happy love you, but I can not help but suspect that their feelings, why After you leave together, did not think there will be such a pain so deep, is not there I do not know how to treasure the well-being, then for him? I do not feel, but if it separated out? I would like to him? There will be less painful do? Unfortunately, life is a gamble, I can not starting again from scratch and can not go to trial, I want to responsible for their own life ah, I choose to be responsible for others ah, but how can I do ah?
He came, and careful watching my every word and deed, accompanied with care. I have no way to make its own right if he treated like lovers in love. I do not want him close, I got a seriously ill person, as a general, there is no spirit, I know that if he is sensitive to a certain confused for my actions and painful, but he was not saying anything, but endured his temper along I have to adjust with changing. My night night's insomnia, with open eyes and think of you, think of him, thinking about the future path, but a moment, I want to die, I want to die they do not have a lot of pain. I cried and cried. I really do not know how to do? His snoring beside me the ups and downs, I'm so miss you at my side was so quiet, quiet Yongzhe me. I really do not want to be a person in a foreign land, and I really does not survive, and how much how much I want to have a love my people and I love the city I want to go back to a happy live on.
He has gone, the pressure of his work is really big, I know that every day that his mind is QUOTA, are to be successful, he said, he was so desperately is to our future life is that we really want Since the freedom and happiness of the day, in the material, in the spirit, to achieve a high degree. I know what he said was his truth, and I also know that he is also looking forward to their success can be better, can get more admiration.
With him there are more than a year, although the real time with not much. I have always know that he is a good person, but I also know that his vanity at the same time more emphasis on his self-consciousness is also stronger. I can not do in front of him always feel completely relaxed, and his marketing sense is too strong, I always feel a bit unreal to him for my behavior, he said to me, I like a clock on the winding , the total in the analysis he has done the most to me the real reason, I was tired, I know he was tired, but I can not change, I face him, I not change, I have heard a variety of words and see his various acts, I would not change, I know this is not his fault, and he is such, his character is so, the nature of his work is the case, his behavior for so many years this is the case, not to mention his is really loves me, but I really tired, have to see him.
I love you, I can not conceal my joy when your side, I have nothing to fear, I do not analyze you, because I trust you, you gave me so much sense of stability, let me how not to be happy?
However, it will over time, this sense of stability again makes me tired out? In the end what they want, to what kind of man, to what kind of lifestyle, everyone said I, this is the most important, but I really do not know, ah, I said, life can not be again, what should I kind of choice to complete the course of my life, I do, God, I beg you, give me a choice, give me an answer bar. . . . .
Also playing the game does not go on, how are not broken bodies, a good tired, like you want to cry for several days. Some tired. To hear your phone on silent, and from the heart.
Heart like a cracked like a bit of pain, this trip to Guangzhou, I very tired from the heart. That moment arrived from the plane, my heart was full of joy and excitement, and eager, and full of filling with, the thought of seeing you, and I really want to delight some of Halo, but hidden deep in the heart of the most the kind of anxiety and fear of floating out of the total time to time, so I thought chaos was a mess.
Finally not seen you, and mind the anxiety and worry as faint ripples in the water is getting bigger, you really wish to see me? You do not like me? You feel over? I am doing work, doing a smile, to suppress the expression of anxiety and restraint with melancholy eyes, but I finally know that my fears were confirmed, pinned down in my heart really hurts, there is no other expression can be any kind of camouflage, I Only tears, curled on the sofa, feeling really cold, the heart bit by bit deep down, there is no way that the method is also not, have no choice but uh.
There is no way to positively, there is no way to deal with, but to accept, only crying, only memories, there is no hope.
Good-bye you are to return to Beijing the day before that I call you to ask you to meet, and only rushed for over an hour to see you, I knew I was wrong, and I should not see you again, and I should not want to go again to save anything, and when I saw from your expression of "the past", yes, have passed, I could in the past to do?
To Beijing, the heart, as is empty, and looked at the fish tank, it went so far as alive, a moment Manasarovar. You say let us put everything on the heart in the past it, perhaps this is the best outcome, you say you are too tired to think I feel tired tired. I do not want Zaiku now, but could not resist a little bit is my retribution it, originally from Shanghai, was leaving, I think Pan is the case.
Would like to henceforth became estranged with you, and in the past have been all kinds of nothingness, your heart is as if broken, a 1.
I was a girl people feel very tired it, certainly, I thought, my behavior, people must be feeling no better stability, because he says so, but you definitely want to have to give you a warm and stable feeling it, yes I was wrong.
I was wrong, I will reform, but you have passed away. . .
Author: joywang910
