Aware of the ocean from the Christmas festival, the first ever one-off minor. Although there are several days to shop along the way everywhere covered with a big Santa Claus picture, Xixi Zhang giggle. Think of your socks, though there are many children, but he refused to plug my favorite gifts to coax me happily, it is not, put me into the bag is good too, unfortunately, he refused to bear down a little bit Bengou stay it looks tired. Shou Sui child would be better, and finally fell asleep, then woke up not survive the Hun Hun will always want new clothes found in the bed, bleary-eyed Benchuqujian firecrackers, I met the older line of a ceremony, there are easy to get the New Year's money can be self-branded of age, were the only outflow. Southwest border of the town, not how to form habits over Christmas and hid there, do not want to see can be avoided all the thought of the time of Kunming, will be the streets Guys and Dolls, the heart sank within him, HT in Kunming, has repeatedly warned his did not think about him, they still did not Guanzhuziji. May be that day, I must Guanzhuziji body - away from Kunming.
A few days ago, HT asked what I wanted Christmas gifts, without hesitation blurted out, they want to eat one meal a Christmas dinner to accompany handsome guy, a handsome guy to buy the warmth of paternity suit, a handsome guy to accompany Christmas Eve play. Finished immediately regret, and a fool can plainly see that I still Zeixin not dead, HT, in his usual quiet good-tempered accepted, just as he did before. And now, not to Kunming, is among the more than 100 kilometers want to use so that they are no longer scrambling to him, on Christmas Eve, he should be feasting on which the bar with my coworkers or classmates carnival. More than 100 kilometers away, still imagine the joy out of him, without me, he would not have defects.
A meal time, look around and not see a colleague HT, very, very naturally asked me to stay on the spot, they thought I was on the HT right to know the whereabouts of there is, of course, his face calm, heart Suanku intolerable.
At the moment HT, being with the students drink Wei Xun, not in the same manner, and therefore can not feel his thoughts in the same time, and he is also still wonder if I were faced with another challenge eye pity or embarrassment, hate only that they are not an rats can not be sewn on the ground seeking to hide from.
Pairs of HT, it seems already know not, but habit of deceiving himself, like he did to stay around Duodai moment, his mind more than enough to pick up the gold industry writer, using a variety of excuses to retain . May be all doomed to irretrievable. Surging crowds downtown, vehicles such as water, Ma Ju-lung, or overt or covert lighting to make everything seem vague, can be hundreds of people, I could felt his presence, first find his silhouette, heart how love, at the foot of a number of bear to the left red in the crowd right protrusion, close to but did not dare go near to others, high legs, feet whipped, I am white Lvqun, small steps anxious to run. I do not know how long gone, long street, the only two Changchangduanduan chasing shadows, and he always feel my presence. Tomorrow, he will have a long journey, good-bye I do not know what day I was finally forced himself called out of the GHT, his face surprised stopped, depending on the days of foreign objects, such as I did not I expect the surprise, but the moment I I just want to gallop past, clinging to, stick his tall thin body, whispers tell he really only like him as a soil robber, he was really reluctant to leave, after a long night of street lamps are still clearly emerge at any time coming back inside, but that for the love of running为爱痴狂woman, he has lost the courage to continue running. There are too many junctions in life, the discovery of joy suddenly walked street person who was his dream children, smiled stood there waiting for me close, till really come together, they find the pace of a fundamental inconsistency not him too quickly, and that I was too slow, and love can not be together, perhaps because I can not keep up his pace a bar. So, stop and let him ease the long journey, and I am able to send him the best gift.
Now, forced himself not to look for him, not tired, tired, do not love, but to no longer want him to have the slightest reluctance, HT makes his kindness, can sometimes become weak, in the together, clearly saw this, he no longer liked me, but I still go out in conjunction with any of my Tongzai, sitting opposite to me, when will the gentle Jian dishes. Throughout, he never said that he loves me, do not actually made any commitment to, and perhaps he felt too committed to make a commitment too early, or maybe I was not asking him to make a commitment to the person, and I was wishful thinking The singing of a one-man show, expect him to be able to tell me that those words, asked how people think in the end his heart, resulting in better than I expected, but not what I want, now no more to ask of his early courage. Furthermore, there is no necessary, to understand his mind, is not it? Only in the long wait, the self-confidence bit by bit by bit, to themselves are beginning to doubt more and more be brought back themselves, the results of the two people engage in tired, and now forcing himself to go away and can no longer think he is no longer He is no longer scrambling to find pleasant, he let him go.
This always thought he was a very crisp, but also the emotional issues are not clear-cut yourself feel bored. Himself or herself, on countless occasions, can always click on the QQ of consciousness up and down his head and received text messages funny or a blessing when you are not aware that the hair out, as if everything is not under control, his birthday, the specialized Please relations colleagues to eat better, they find themselves in order to prevent him, out the door, leaning on his legs completely unconscious body to ride, to the high road when the first thing that strikes muddleheaded Lenz came in knowing that they are doing in the end what So, once again close to midnight, the station stood empty, sent him text messages, suddenly very afraid of him back, unsettling ran off, did not give up re-boot, all of his messages, increasingly feel silly , telephone suddenly remembered it was his number, can do, knew that he was celebrating with colleagues, and now I met him, only crying a mess of throwing herself in his arms, then, how he ended. Phone rang non-stop, take in your hand like a time bomb, but she never did take courage, the tears began to fail to live up to drain, more afraid to take. Rainy night, a person to stay in the big house can not be suppressed a sudden think he would like the heartache, desperately sat on the sofa in his own shrink will no longer small, it can still feel pain. Think of him when they go out and up at night for fear of their own; remind himself that he took a business trip to see Zhuang rice - let your loved one to eat, he will follow with a big bag of Xi Zizi send him back, he was invited to familiar colleagues sharing; remind himself that he had met during his shopping for him unconscious total Dongdong bought, and afterwards he Xiao Ma silly girl asking too much, which will really want to tell him, as long as he wanted, as long as I can, then nothing can not be a; remind himself that night alone, and night train to Dali look for him, a strange odor in the full car almost passed out, only he was pleased when a text message; remind himself that night, crying hysterically in the hotel, but not to the interference him; thought He wanted to fail, they want to beat him on the phone but only for their own mobile phones, said the place to yourself over and over again to listen to; remind himself that he was sitting at the station to see the high quick departure hot pursuit, crying so that passers-by an annoyed look, just as when they could not bear to stay away from work every day of his figure; remind himself that tiger jump, Shangri-La are playing absent-minded, because the side without him, Mai Menpiao when the customary two, fantasy, he Shence to accompany me; think the post office in Lijiang to write him send him a postcard, like Li-xiang when it was written Kanji know that we have no possibility of re-together, go on like this close to importune, but if this can not miss him, I am willing to pay for all, after all, on the 1st missed, life hard to find; remind himself that he is just two to Lijiang for him, the second silent walk in the city alone, and makes a search for traces of a total of walk, love him for so long, but his heart has always been at infinity, perhaps the world's farthest distance is not poles apart, not me, in front of him and he did not know that I love him, but I at his side, he knows I love him but their hearts are rolling on the fence.
Christmas, to remind ourselves away from Kunming, is not in him, to space-time interval without getting to him, no opportunity of talking to my colleagues to go out, because they have been accustomed to will be defined as the HT of the seniors, HT little master, See every one of them will let me Chujingshengqing, of course, to ensure that he was no longer knee-jerk calls and send text messages, to prepare their own bottle of red wine also listed on the agenda, I am poor drink, compared with no HT, estimated that a cup is enough the rest were all HT, and I drink a never-ending always by him do the job, this is the last time. Then give yourself a black and sweet dreams, send HT should be a quiet night before this Christmas the best method. Wait until the wake, and everything will also quietly away. As memories of the past are now bit by bit, feeling all of them seems like a dream, together with the HT, as if everything is stolen, a beautiful untrue, end in vector moment of fear that someone to bring the real recaptured my Pride And Prejudice . Now, all written, it is only in the face after yourself better forgotten, and to promote their Christmas Eve must run away from all the bar on Christmas.
Author: jane800911
