I was a deserter, whether it's car and fled, or sitting on the plane.
Spent my life in the coldest millennium, with a smile is no longer a youth celebrated the birthday of young, throwing so I can not breathe, love, ran away.
His teardrop in my back of the hand, he sang at the birthday party on the "Forget you and I can not do ......" publicly choke with sobs. I looked at him, thinking that why he can not be a strong point. I do not even a little soft-hearted, I have everything or nothing, and I only want freedom, the South did not, and perhaps the north have, China did not, perhaps abroad.
Baby, I just want to leave.
The "car key in this, that why why, send me pocket money every month in Beijing, a student painful."
"Well, back to you each month send jujube tea, you are not very good complexion." He addition to a variety of sugar-coated bullets used to surround me, can do something else? I need not fish head 10 kinds of different tastes, I would like is that it can rely on me to live on the shoulder, you can help me prop up a sky umbrella ah. Know? Baby?
I was tired, I have to leave, and then walk you to easily, and do not live in the shadow of another person, the following, and kept being compared.
This is not fair.
I know you and him to take more than unfair.
But you know what? He was my life's aspirations, my fate.
I thought I could love a person healthy again, but I can not do.
I have left.
You take care of yourself.
I pass away, without looking left.
Moved to Beijing.
Very cold in February in Beijing, the next a heavy snow, as if to welcome me back to Beijing after six years to re-float the lily.
I said, the lily is a highly adaptable plant, which will fall to take root. In which to live for a long time which will fall in love with the.
The wind chill of early spring day in transit buses, in the crowded carriage inside listening to Walkman cassette tape released in English. I began to remember seems to have never been so hard to learn too seriously. Live life like a monk, silent meditation for this 20 years, passed away.
Do you really want to go abroad? Is true to the school, or bailing farther away? When one looks at the efforts of削尖了脑袋more than I want to go abroad, young faces, students test only my life-saving straw seems, is to support me to live a positive impetus. To avoid a mess of my reason for the beauty of the scene.
Daily experience different climate change, a rare Spring Snow, gradually melting ice Weiminghu night, peach blossoms in full bloom, a teaching up studying the atmosphere, ready to accept the baptism of dust storms, as well as large bathroom water spray ... ...
The south and the noise gradually away from my life, and that not sure, like love has finally out of my life.
When you receive the Internet let me discouraged those letters, I know right from afar that he has no illusions.
I chose to live as free, the price is to have, and those who dream of complete abandon.
Finally came to understand that can not pin their hopes on someone else's body.
Mother often said that people will rely on running, relying on the tree will topple, and rely on their best.
How can I put all our hopes are pinned on an encounter something we should not go back to people? Although I myself am a deserter, but he was a man, I believe he will only be burning his boats to take this risk, relying on his love and blind trust of a gamble.
When I was holding the phone booth in front of Beijing University, the Southern crying when he had no guilt, and only laugh at his own self-inflicted. Thoroughly washing their own tears again, calmly, and to re-make decisions for themselves.
In operation for six years, the company stopped coming, it used to be my most cherished cause and sustenance. Immediately resell the car, to be a car-class, The Other, no longer have to be someone else to play by the old idea of the car.
Wind egg shells, financial scattered human well-being.
Only in this way to comfort himself.
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And the days of break-seat this love, can only say that the fault of the moon.
Dare I say I can be so unfeeling as a woman, did not give him shock the world love and leave. Once he sent me "I'm afraid too late, I have to holding you ... ... If the world could I forget, at least you deserve me to treasure ... ..." Let me moved so he let me believe he was affectionately I will have a lifetime of good, but I also deeply appreciate the love easy to get along with difficult truth.
I have to leave, or else will be destroyed by our own hands.
He likes to Li Quan's "bitter," said I did not believe in love I was a bitter thing.
He finally was convinced.
Is he just passing through my life? A romantic test? I know he loves me more than I love him, he has also led to hate me. Maybe I should not have Aquarius and Scorpio, he has such a romantic, the damage to each other is so deep.
He said that if you can let him re-making a choice, he would rather have never met me.
I have so frightening?
So far, we do not meet again.
While living in the same city, perhaps often pass by.
Against him, I can only wish him to find him really belongs to his half. Does he also know that the opposite of love is not hate, is indifference.
Author: lilyinthewind
