Met online high school classmate, asked me the current situation, I truthfully told, I have no destination, swinging half a year.
He immediately phoned over asking, "how can you how can ... ... ... ..." I know I should be grateful to him, and irrelevant they do not, I was born for this gas. Children confused for a while but I suddenly think of it, on what basis he said that I ah? Abroad for three years, Brazil went to the whole of Europe, New York, went to three, so how can say that I am ah? I would pocket is not yet in China's inner circle.
He asked: "Do you that puberty Mody, it has been; menopause, has not arrived yet, action Why weird? If you really want to play, you might consider them, I have also not hard to come here."
Why weird? I thought, perhaps, different definitions, he was called the travel, and I this is called roaming. But also one of stage difference in terminology, such as I am now actually considering stray from the philosophy, the so-called "learn from their mistakes, pain Ru Zai", began giving the body the soul, separated by a distance looked at himself, a sober mind is no longer unilaterally call pain and loneliness, I did not worry so simple romance to record her feelings, but to and belongs to some.
Donkeys, whether to pursue or banish it? The source of the pain like? Lonely people so much exposure to crowds, that gushed from the heart of apprehension and anxiety for about? My heart has been torn from time to time the pain, but also for something? Ah feeling of what I tend to think it is merely an excuse for prevarication, I casually find his heart Bale.
Spent their childhood played hide and seek game, the screening process is a tiny survival of the fittest process, the final is to be selected is in fact the collective exile who abandoned. "Police" Although a minority, but he never isolated, because he is a defender of the collective order; and "thief" is a collective order of spoilers. In contrast, in the hide and seek game, to arrest people who are collectively abandoned, while hiding those who have formed a collective ─ ─ while hiding those who the process of internal conflicts in the game, but the role of the same group they belong to an invisible . So, you just player still belongs to the whole collective, all of a sudden "the entire collective" disappeared without a trace, and only you have been banished in the open empty streets, has become a "shameful lonely person."
From the loneliness of the performance point of view, was banished obviously extremely painful, even unbearable, so he had to call running divisions to find another person to do his own replacement, so that a previous lucky to become ─ ─ As the unfortunate folk superstition in Diaosi Gui, or fell into the water ghosts must find a substitute, to re-vote of Health. This is the harsh nature of the game where: The exiles return to the collective happiness, must have been bad luck that the new person selected to bear the expense of the pain of expulsion from the collective. The lonely exile who has been hard to find a similar, but the deportee is not an alliance with similar absolve themselves of loneliness, but to him as a heterogeneous, the two sides exchanged identity immediately. Return of a person to obtain a collective victory, means that another person had been exiled by the collective fate. In other words, being in the lonely exile all the efforts made, not confrontation with the loneliness, more than love alone, but hate their own destiny, hate their own identity. All his efforts are to get rid of the original himself, to find his own replacement, then become a person ─ ─ adding that he was extremely powerful invisible group. Even if that invisible groups are "exile" of the initiator, even if all the bad luck deportee that invisible groups are single-handedly caused by the deportee is the unconditional desire to become a member of that group. Deportees who were sent into exile because of his invisible body of the infinite yearning and tireless efforts, he eventually will be able to become a new person ─ ─ exempt as long as the end of the game early, however. The false hope that he will never be questioned and censured for rules of the game. This childhood rules of the game will allow participants to grow up, their lives and never made him bitter against any group, he would desire to be naturalized, into all threatening to abandon and banish him and give him infinite pain groups. Even more of a group made him the pain, he aspires to be more strongly that members of the group. He only wants to stay away from the pain, but it will never work to eliminate the source of the pain.
Obviously, this game is from at such a subconscious: The collective abandonment is the most horrible punishment and the most unfortunate fate; whether the collective is good or evil, regardless of the collective benefit that is doing harm to the individuals, as individuals, must be unconditionally dependent collective. Once the collective exile, we must spare no effort at all costs to seek return of the collective path. This group, which is equivalent Hobbes Leviathan mentioned ─ ─ huge sea monster, individuals not only powerless to resist it, or even can not defy it.
Think a child read a ghost story: a ghost ship floating in the sea long-lasting, passengers lasts know what had happened, but reluctantly forced to eat, drink, dance, and never get to shore ... ... to have had some time to float on the road, I always ship the illusion of being in the devil.
Donkey on the road, far from the natural and unrestrained imagination, it is because conversion without a soul, lonely fight against those social monsters, a lot of unhappy, psychology of "original sin" consciousness, "pain HAPPY" I'm afraid they still beat the first guns, alas.
Aspire to Zhuangzi "Happy Tour" itself, those days Beibeiqieqie to ask, "over the horizon, where mountains, water solution too?" Really "bent on天涯thin" the! Of urban civilization of life, and people no longer have any contact with soil or natural, pastoral life beautiful and full of flavor that the way has been destroyed. Collectivism rampant mood of the people were Fen Lai bureaucratic dogma to suppress the net to make vivid the spirit of being deprived itself of the form of rigid ... ...
Of the South China Sea Emperor Yu hands, feet North of the Emperor Yu, the central heart of the Emperor Yu. Promising quick hands and feet, the heart has to be chaotic nature. OK if the injury was something quick simple heart of nature, this mind an injury, must be as "calculating," "intentionally," Qiao were excellent workers and the wise, life will not help in pain; stubborn, pain still deeper.
Sister asked me what was being done these days, I have dug out the pile of Mao Bianzhi look at her, "Well, Datang Xijing 1000 Temple Treasure Pagoda inscription facing a seven times before induction." Her eyes did not fall out of refreshments, a child Dad Dad holding a broom behind the chasing I clinical paste, to no avail, and now so conscious ah? Finally grow up a bit, with something "reject" the wisdom of a few days ago I just refused to go to Tibet's engagements, or follow the friend's engineering teams in Tibet it is also free of charge. Empress, I sat thinking of the road railings philosophical issues, thinking about how to get the real happiness - not what the donkey is to be spontaneous pain, right?
Author: sususu
